She walks outside to sit in the dark

It’s late and everyone is in bed sleeping

But not her, for she dreads sleep; it is a portal to fear

So she sits on the sidewalk in the cool night air

Looking at the stars she thinks of her choices

The good, the bad, the smart, the dumb

She cringes at careless mistakes and rude words

For a moment she lets go, but the silence gets too loud

It reminds her that she is truly alone in a house full of people

This refuge has its price, and is almost a new prison in its new year

Her tears never stop so she wears sunglasses in public to hide her eyes

It’s her mask on how she feels inside, with all the confusion and turmoil

Thoughts pass through her mind, only a few are worth the time

Those she writes in her notebook

It is the key to unlocking her true insecurities

They continuously eat away at her conscious

A support beam would be nice, since she’s an unstable building

She forgets deep thinking for a minute and draws a long breath

As she blows out it forms a cloud in her face

She looks down the street and begins to walk

Headed to an unknown destination she lets life go