You’ll always be the one who’s rejected-

By both the boys who you only wanted a relationship from-

They will always want her instead-

Why does this hurt so much?

The razorblade sinks in deep to my flesh-

I close my eyes and tears form-

The drugs are wonderful and my only salvation-

It hurts to wear the love that you’ve never had.

You’ll always wonder if you could be

Delicate or innocent

But it will never happen for you because your dirty-

So dirty-

He rejected you with every fiber-

It started out as fucking and it ended fucked up-

Why am I so horrible?

I’m such an ugly person!

I hate myself, that fact is true.

All I wanted was to be saved.