it hurts so bad

barely being part of your life

when I feel like you are my life.

i drop the phone and cradle

Your picture in my arms.

sobbing.

again.

i cry for You, over and over,

for no reason,

except for it seems You're Slipping and

i can't do a thing about it.

I know that You wont go anywhere

where would You go anyways?

but it seems You've already

gone

somewhere;

and I'm hanging on to You

by a loose thread.

and I feel like I'm a nuisance-

holding You in the past,

but you say I'm crazy.

i know somehow,

that all this doubt is mine

completely.

but if I know this,

shouldn't it go away?