A Letter to Papa

Seven months have already passed
But not a day goes by
Without some thought of you
It’s been a long time
Since I saw you last
So much has changed
Since that last time
Your little one is all grown up
Now a young woman
Who you can be proud of
Though I will still make
Disappointing choices and many mistakes
I hope you will watch over me
From your place in Heaven
I pray a piece of you will
Stay with me always
Encouraging me to go for it all
After all, how can anything be
Beyond my reach when
You believe in me?
And for that I am
Thankful
You have more influence over me
Than you know
When you died
Something inside me shattered
It must have been my heart
Because I felt only
Sadness
I was empty of real feeling
You must have known
And I’m sure you had a hand
In bringing me someone who could
Fix it
I laugh at the irony of it all
Because even though you brought us together
I can never properly introduce you
The promise that can
Never be kept
Is the one that means the most
All I can do now
Is continue to believe
That he has your approval
And that you’re happy for us
All I can do
Is continue to believe
That the path I’m walking
Makes you proud of me
All I can do
Is pray and hope and wish
That your eternal rest
Is keeping your soul content
Please be at peace wherever you are
And never forget me
And how much I will always love you