this wasn't supposed to happen.

it was never supposed to end up like this.

maybe my heart knew a little.

maybe my heart was a little aware of the situation.

but it never told me.

"no",

I promised.

I promised everyone.

it was a lie,

but I didn't know.

maybe my heart knew.

maybe my heart wanted to hide,

but it never shared it with me.

I never lied to you.

my heart lied to you, to me, to everyone.

my heart is keeping secrets from me.

I want to know them.

I need to know them,

but it will never tell.

it will never let me in.

no.

I'm not supposed to be here with you.

or am I?

everyone knew.

everyone but me.

no one told me, that this would happen.

they knew, but they lied.

no.

I can't do this.

I want it so much.

but I promised,

"no."

my heart wants you,

but it doesn't know what it's doing.

my heart's screwing everything up.

it's lying to me.

it's keeping secrets from me.

it won't let me in.

no.

I don't know what I want.

do I want you? I don't know.

I need to know,

but my heart won't tell.

my heart is keeping secrets from me,

and I know you hate it.

I need to know.

you need to know.

but it won't let us in.

it's leaving us on our own with no clues,

and it's laughing about it.

taunting me always.

I can hear it in my head.

time's ticking away.

maybe when the end is near,

it will share its secrets with me.