A/N: My friends are going to kill me for this… but hopefully I’ll live long enough to complete it. This is just a simple background story that deals with Reni’s past. It’s only here to delve a little into his life before CAPTOR so that the references to Agis in later books are not completely random. Okay? Okay. Warning: angst is highly present throughout this story, as well as a little bit of language. As always, reviews are highly welcomed. Have fun!

If suddenly they rediscovered something that they thought they had lost, what would they do? Would they be happy and try to find the other things? Would they be sad, or terrified that the thing they had found would be taken away from them again? Would they be angry that they had lost everything they knew?

If that person could be happy in life, even though they had lost everything, then wouldn’t they also remember why they were happy? Would there be a layer of sadness beneath it all, just masked to hide the pain? Could they ever forget what had happened to them; could they go through life wondering when everything would disappear again?

If a person could do all of these things, then they could call themselves human. To move on, to remember and forget, to feel emotion…these are the most important pieces of a human. If one cannot do these things, then they cannot be human.

Emotions are the greatest weakness of a human being. They are what characterize a person. Without emotion, one has no personality. Without thought, one cannot act. Without feeling, one is nothing.

To live, one must have realized, ‘I want to be. I want to think, and to feel, and to know. I want to be…myself. I want…to have life, and…to be loved. I want someone…to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay. I want to have…a soul.’

Here, now; you are a human being. Just because they left you, does not mean everything is lost. You have me now. And later, you will have them.

Cherish. Embrace. Remember. Endure.

Defeat.