i'm climbing the highest heights...
all the way up past the stars, the moon, galaxies.
i'm afraid that i'll falll down like Alice
and won't be able to come back.
where does courage and confidence come from?
why is scary to show yourself to others?
its all in your mind.
and the mind is most powerful thing ever.
it controls everything you do and who you are.
i've taken 100, 101, 102, 103 steps so far.
now i have about...a trillion more left.
not too bad right?
a crossroad passes me by, showing me
that i could always go back and be safe
like everyone else.
i'm afraid, afraid.
i need to gain faith in myself.
keep on chanting...
have you ever felt like you were watching yourself
like a movie?
happens a lot now.
now i'm runnninnng i need to reach it
reeaaaach it now.
noow.
nooooooow.
now.
all my stupid wants put aside.
wanting a boyfriend, more friends, outgoing, confidence, ignorance, loneliness gone.
i look like a normal girl on the outside.
smile like one, talk like one, cry like one.
but i'm a scared awkward little girl.
still trying to grow up.
everything just seemed so pretty before.