I send you a sideways glance

The sort you give when something is to handsome to look in the eyes

But my nose still faces the floor

Because I’m afraid my expression of irritation

Has been glued on although you’d give me an easy smile

I pout and I wave my hand in disapproval

But I eye you from the corner of my eyes, half hoping

That it amuses you, for in the deep and cold

Open stadium, you’re the one I marked with a pretty and shiny

X please tell me that you notice me

X for the target of something I’m still unsure off

Uneasy with

And insecure around.

God I hope that the slight convulsion in my body

Is coming from the heavy stereo sound

I see your eyes set on the stage,

dear god I hope it’s what’s grabbing your attention

But my eyes are fascinated on the sight of you

And the neon lights just make it much more interesting

And the hellish sound of a parody rock band is just

The bad soundtrack for the night

Because my eyes are simply eating you alive.

And now my eyes keep drifting out the window

Knowing that you’re still out there,

Between the shadows and the fabricated lights that shift from red to green

No doubt holding both a girl in an arm and some booze in the other.

The hardest thing I thinking you have a life

Beyond my eyes, my grasp, my power.