there was a moment, just a bare moment, when i thought you were smiling because of me. that you were happy, because of me. i thought that you had something to live for, for once, and i thought that it was me. i thought that for once, i wasn't being selfish and greedy, when i said you were mine --

all mine

but i was wrong.

you know how much i hate being wrong.

i felt like i was on top of the world, and that you loved me as much as i loved you. all your kisses, and the shared hits, the skin against skin nights on your couch, until we couldn't see each other's faces in the dark, all your marks on my neck and down my skin -- i thought they meant something.

but i was wrong.

you thought i knew that we were just friends. you thought i knew that you loved her, and just needed someone else to get her out of your thoughts. you thought i knew that you never loved me. you thought i knew that we ... that there was no 'we' -- no 'us'.

but you never told me.