Mistake

There is no turning back...
Abandoned to even an eternal second of hell,
The heart contorts in twisted morbidity,
Guilt seizes violently, terror grips with dread,
Tearing the helpless, pitiable, haunted soul...

Paralyzed senses,
Blood runs ghostly,
The soul is frozen
Indecision mounts,
Worry escalates,
Endless tears fall,
Sleepless nights,
Restless and guilty,
The scarlet soul is ill,
So ill, so ill, so sick,
Violently worthless,
Shame overwhelms,
Shame, shame, shame!

The spirit shudders,
Begging to forget,
To leave it behind,
To let dead men lie,
To let the past sleep,
To not disturb the cursed,
To end the pain...

And life goes on.