While You Were Cheating (I Had Some Thoughts)

Never in my life can I imagine you
here with me (yes, beside me)
lying on my double bed with
the sheets to our necks (all up to our necks)
covering our immodesty (shielding it from each other)
an impulsive atonement (for Adam and Eve's sin)

I understand my vulnerability
(do you understand yours?)
women are subjected easily as being passive (to love-making)
(with God creating us in such a way)
and now I guess taking advantage of me
didn't seem like a good idea
(but I let you, I let you do it)

Is it still my fault?

Pain and abandonment are two thoughts
(that'll abuse my mind)
and I told you that taking me
(loving me, doing me)
will have its consequences (I swear)
but will your monstrous heart accept them?
(there are downsides, definite downsides to this)

I guess I lied about this
(I can imagine being with you)
everything will run its day-to-day courses
when you leave my bed (for that woman you married)
and I'm left to the status of your mistress
(a whore, a slut, an adulterer's partner)

I'm abandoned, discarded, just a plaything for your Amusement

P.S.
(Does your wife know?)