The rain is incessant

It patters against the window

It brings about a new cold

As if to remind me you are not here

Do I really need to be reminded

That you are no longer here?

That you decided to leave

Our love behind?

It did not fit in

No not with your cozy little world

We were an anomaly

I was just your toy

You played me so well

I did not see the signs

Even if I did

I would have ignored them

Does it shock you?

To find out that I loved you?

That I knew your reasons for leaving

Though you had not said a word?

That is because I know you

I know what you mean before you speak

For you are a part of me

And I know myself quite well

The rain has yet to stop

Its noisy little reminder

That I am alone

In a place we once called home

The lights are dim

Do they too reflect my mood?

Or perhaps it is my life

That has grown dim with your absence?

I gave you all I was

And still it was not enough

To keep you by my side

To hold me in your arms

I do not regret what I did

I would not be your toy anymore

I only regret that we had to part

For you to truly see who I am

I miss you. That's the truth

I lie awake here in our bed

And shiver as I watch the rain drops

As if they are falling unto my skin

There is thunder and lightning now

And I had begun to think it was my heart

Rebelling against the fact

That it can no longer feel yours beat as well

Is it as you imagined it would be?

Are you satisfied now

With the life you've gained

Now that you've left me?

Did that perfect little picture

In your mind become true?

I hope it does someday

But it is very doubtful

You are too idealistic my love

There is no room to compromise

Everything must be done

According to what you say

Tread lightly though

For I will no longer be there

To catch you when you fall.

It was you who left, not I.

I must get up and get ready for the day

For the rain must end sometime

And I intend to greet it

With a smile upon my face

This bed of mine will not always be cold

This space in my heart won't always be empty

Someday someone will fill both with love

I am only sorry it could not be you