why is it so hard to say "I want you"

when you're so, so far away

and why can't I bring myself to hear

what your next email might say

while I try so hard each night to find

a way for us to be

not knowing even if you feel

the same when you think of me

and now I'm breaking my own rules

just to make it to my bed

to dreams where you're already mine

and the words already said