Not Good Enough

Some say I’m beautiful,

I don’t agree.

They say that I’m just searching for a complement,

But I’m not.

I’ve been called by some,

The prettiest girl in the school.

But I defiantly disagree.

How am I supposed to feel beautiful,

If the only people’s opinion who matter,

Say I am not?

All my life I have felt like the ugly duckling,

Always being compared to my sister,

Never being good enough.

Never perfect.

Always getting called fat,

Always being told that my sports have left me broken,

That my faith is broken.

Always being forced to be some one I’m not.

I’ve grown up always being told that I will not go as far as she will,

I will not have as much.

I’m not good enough.

People look at me and all the awards I’ve won,

My family just says,

No big deal she’s already won that.

Every time I raise myself up,

They knock me back down.

So how am I supposed to have confidence in myself,

When my support is just making me fall?