you’ll always be the one who’s rejected at the end of the day, by both the boys who you only wanted a relationship from and perhaps emotions that wouldn't be known as hatred & rejection because those are the types of things you know very well-

you will always want to be her instead because she's so much fucking better than everyone else and she always gets the boys and the girls and the drugs DRUGS DRUGS. You ask yourself that question over and over, like a mantra;

"Why does this hurt so much?"

why do these stupid relationships affect me so? There is a huge wall between the way that I feel and the way that she feels, this will never be something that unites us or makes up equal-

the razorblade sinks in deep to my flesh, I close my eyes and tears form but I just cut deeper and deeper until all my emotions are flowing out of me like the dirty rusty blood-

flow away, you shitty person