Dammit! Why?!
Why can’t I tell you after all this time that I still care?
How can I keep this inside when it kills me to know that soon you’ll be gone?
I’ve tried and tried but I can’t say it.
I can’t admit I’ve been that dumb
All this time
Because I still care.
Why did we stop talking?
Was it something I did?
Why did you stop caring-
When I was too stupid to stop?
I dream of your eyes;
To this day, two years later
I still think of you-
Things remind me of you,
But I can’t do this anymore.
I can’t keep this in
But somehow, I can’t tell you.
Because I know you’ll think it’s stupid
And naïve to still care.
But I do.
And you don’t see the point
In me wanting to see you before you go,
Or in wanting to see you at all.
But, now I know it’s now or never
And I guess you chose never.
It kills me to know that you’d rather never than now.
Why can’t I hug you one last time?
Why can’t I look into your eyes and see myself?
Why can’t you just shut up long enough to hear what I’m saying?
I care about you!
I fucking care about you and your idiodicies and idiosyncrasies and everything!
I care dammit and somehow I can’t help but feel that you just don’t-
And yet that does nothing to deter the way I feel.
If you chose never, then I’ll just have to cope.
And you’ll just have to know that I still care;
Even if that sounds stupid and pointless-
It’s not to me.
I’ll always care dammit even if you are far away-
Even if you aren’t in my life-
Even if you don’t want to be.
I’ll always care dammit and you had best rememeber that!