Untitled Jealousy

I think…

That I am going to sink,

Into the depths of this deep, cold ocean,

My heart is confused, in this dazed, fluid motion.

I don't know what my body is doing anymore,

It's disconnected, all cold and sore,

Something I've been kinda longing for.

I know that you're taken,

I wish that I was mistaken,

You're happier than I have ever been,

I wish your joy was a sin,

I want to be part of it,

I wonder if I could be the one that would fit…

Trust me,

Can you see?,

I'm happy for you,

This someone new,

In your life,

But, the jealousy is stabbing me like a knife,

You deserve someone to make you feel worthwhile,

It's great that she makes you smile.

I'll admit it now,

This is kind of a bad time to sow.

It's making me insane,

This wants me to go to a fane,

To ask what I should do,

Should I follow through?

Leave it like this?

Let you live in utter bliss?

I know that you're taken,

I wish that I was mistaken,

You're happier than I have ever been,

I wish your joy was a sin,

I want to be part of it,

I wonder if I could be the one that would fit…

I don't think that I can go on,

I'm clutching this computer like a mother and her newborn fawn,

Hanging on your every word,

I know this sounds absurd,

But…

I can't live without you,

I wish we were a two,

You are what forces me to start my day,

For a little, you make my darkness go away.

I can go on and on,

List things until dawn.

I'll just come out and say it,

I want to be with you.

Possibly be more than good friends.

I think I love you.

But, it doesn't matter,

Because you are taken.

And you will never love me.

Back in return.