Yea I just got dumped. Three years down the tubes, I guess theres no room for me and the drugs...

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Cover me in turpentine and wash away all the colors you left behind

Thin the paints that stains my heart and taints

My soul… I’m drowning!

In all the colors of you

I washed up on your amber shores

Lost and broken, stained and ill

Alone…

Staring at your colorful ocean

You forced me out a long time ago,

At least from your blackened heart.

How blue is the hurt, or does it not hurt so badly?

I’m blue now

I strolled along the scorching beach

Dripping away the colors

How did I find the solid ground?

When so long I’ve treaded water.

You never cared for pain

Guess that’s why you never felt it

I feel the edges of my zombie heart

Fade away…

How red was your anger, as red as the lust, lust fades away…

My palms are red

I don’t want to feel anymore

I want to cry and scream but the words…

I cough up your colors kneeling in the sand

Is this beach eternity, the forever you promised?

Did your promises ever really mean anything?

You promised not to hurt me…

How purple are the bruises, the ones you never meant to give

My body is purple

The pain, the confusion

My throat is dry from saying it…

He didn’t mean it I know he didn’t mean it like that

Did you mean it? The blooming bruises say you mean it

The sand is hard and unwelcoming

Like the roughness of you hands

The roughness of your love

Can you call it that?

How green were the drugs, the mood swings…hate

I can see the green

The trips that weren’t fun.

The water patters like the sound of pills on a table

Were they more important then me?

Was she more important then me?

Who will be the next one to swim in your ocean?

To drown in the colors, drown in the drugs

Will they meet me…

Here…..?

How grey is the area you live in… where are your right and wrong

The grayness fills my eyes

And my mind feels dead.

Nothing matters when there are no rules

Nothing matters when you straddle the line

I sat on the line with you…but you can’t sit forever

The sun is gone now but the light won’t go out

Not so long as you’re still a part of this place

A part

Of me…

Cover me in turpentine and wash away all the colors you left behind