Now That You’re Gone

Now that you’re gone,

I want to cry,

To shed my tears,

And wonder why,

I know the answers,

But not the reasons,

These trials are hard,

But I know they only last seasons.

It’s been seven months,

Since that day you passed,

But the pain it’s caused,

Just seems to last,

The pain inside,

Won’t go away,

I’m reminded of it,

Everyday.

I’m reminded of the pain,

By such a small thing,

I wear it around my neck,

It’s your wedding ring,

A small piece of gold,

That means so much,

A symbol of those vows,

That you both took.

Since you’ve gone,

There’s so much distance between us,

We’ve lost our bond,

That I know is a must,

Little by little,

We’re falling apart,

It’s slowly breaking,

And shattering my heart.

When I look at them,

The people I see,

Instead of my family,

It’s strangers I see,

I know you’d want us,

To be one, a whole,

But with you not here,

We’ve lost our family’s soul.

I try my hardest,

To do what I have to,

But it always feels,

That in some way,

I’ve disappointed you,

I know that that isn’t,

Entirely true,

There’s just so much pressure,

That hell I put myself through.

I try and try,

To fill your shoes,

I know I’ll never fill them,

That voids too damn big,

It’s like trying to beat a game,

That you know you’ll never win,

I’ll probably kill myself,

From trying so hard,

But by doing that,

You probably think I’m a retard.

People think that I’m crazy,

Because I don’t shed tears,

They think I don’t care,

But they never saw all my fears,

I’m hardly ever sad,

When I talk about you,

They think I never loved you,

But the fact is I do.

I know I told you this,

I told you everyday,

Those three little words,

That simple little phrase,

Most people take it for granted,

How little time we have,

That they forget to take time,

To say just that,

It only takes a second,

Sometimes even two,

To say those three small words,

“I Love you”.

I Love you momma,

I always have,

You gave me life,

A home,

And a bed,

I know dad tries,

But it’s not the same,

The day you died,

I lost my best friend.

The place that you’re in,

Is where I want to be,

In Heaven with God,

I can already see,

No more pain or sorrow,

You’re standing right by His side,

That’s been my comforting thought,

Since that day you died.