Undeniable Change

O, but that normalcy would return

Where did meaning go,

How do I withstand

The harsh winds of undeniable change

Close my eyes, but don’t sleep

I fear to dream

For I know not

What those dreams will tell me

Have I, once again,

Wondered down the wrong path

Only to balk and wish

For better times?

Once again,

I yearn for death

If only to cease the confusion

Overwhelming my world

My life is and endless

Book of poetry

Dripping sorrow

Bathed in blood

Those who once saved me

Now showing me

Just how little

I am worth

Can you hear the blood singing?

The sound of release.

Sweet suicide

How do I escape?

I truly live

Only within the confines

Of what some call

Prison

Must I constantly

Placate your ego?

Must I go numb

Just to hide my feelings?

I just want to live

To love, to learn

I am me…

I think

Don’t you dare

Tell me to calm down,

That I’m overreacting

Let me cry myself to sleep

Must I hide

Who I really am?

Scared and vulnerable;

Always alone

Don’t worry about me,

I’m fine

I can keep this façade

For as long as I need