I Love You

I owe you my life

So many people say those words

Yet I actually mean them

This life that I'm finding

This happiness that's building

Is all to you

You'll say that I did it,

That you just helped me help myself

But I so needed that from you

You've been nothing but wonderful

You've said nothing but encouragements

I keep trying to tell you how hard it is

To give up my blade

To not always look back

To try and trust, and be happy again

But you won't have it

You just tell me that it'll be okay

That God will see me through

And that you'll never abandon me

I wish there were something I could say

To show you just what you mean to me

Three little words cross my mind

But they're scary now, unlike before

I say them all the time... but they're bigger now

And it's harder for them to cross my lips

All because I mean them this time

I mean them with all my heart and soul

I love you

But it's not the love of romances

Where we kiss and ride into the sunset

But rather the deeper love

Of having a friend, a brother like you

I owe you my life

And all that it may become

And for that and so much more,

My heart aches to say those words to you

But they're so hard to say; they're real this time

And when they're real, they can turn around and hurt me

But in the end it is true through and through

I love you