Frozen

Just thinking about it makes her blood run cold

Just the word freezes her

Used

Like a thing

Not a person

Not human at all

Used

Something you use

A tool

Something to be manipulated

Something that has no feelings

Someone she thought was her friend

Someone she knew well

Someone she trusted

A realization

Like a slap on the face

All these years

This whole time

Her friend used her

To get what she wanted

Never thinking about anyone but herself

A revelation

A cold winter’s day

Riding home on the bus

Staring out the window

Staring at her distorted face

The warmth of the bus gone

The only thing left was coldness

Froze her to the core

Pain

Betrayal

Anger

All feelings natural

Self doubt

Hatred

Winter had come

She felt it

It settled into her body

Made her feel cold

Weary

Like life could not go on

Made her want to retreat inside herself

Never to return

Wanted to hide

Closed her down inside

Because of the girl

Who she thought was her best friend

But who used her

Like a thing

Not a person

Lower than dirt

Ugly

Dirty

She wanted to hide from it all

To escape

Nothing would melt the snow

Of the winter

Nothing would melt the ice

In her heart