What's Inside?

What I am feeling inside

is all screwed up and deformed.

It's like some insane roller coaster ride

or gross food being re-warmed.

I cannot stand the feeling of pain and regret

Nor the feeling of love and hate.

Everything and everyone I just wanna forget

But I guess I just can't change my frightful fate.

Drowning in agony

Wallowing in nervousness.

My heart screams a disgraceful symphony

And my brain reveals some giant nasty mess.

Not now,

Not then,

No how,

No when,

It's all out of my range,

Nothing is going to change.