Here is the path into my soul,
My heart, my whole world,
Here is the key to open it all,
Given to you in my time of weakness,
I trust you so much,
Here is the way into my life,
Be brave and venture inside.

Here are my feelings, my thoughts,
Everything in my mind about it all,
Here is my state of mind, my logic,
Right now passion outweighs it all,
It's too much for me to process,
Here is the way onto the pedestal,
Just step up.

Here is my wealth, my health,
I give up everything I own,
Here is my life, my future,
I will risk it all,
Nothing else matters,
Here is my love,
Will you leap for me?

it hurts like crazy every time i see you
especially since you don't really get it
you don't get how much i'm really hurting
you don't get how much i need to get away
let me go back and maybe then i'll be okay

it hurts like crazy every time you cry
and every time you do i want to die
because i know for some reason in some way
i contributed to making you shed those tears
i want this to be okay again but i can't do anything
every choice you make determines the path
so i pray to god you choose the right choice
not the one that will leave me hurting and dead for the rest of my life
unless i decide to grow a backbone and end it

it hurts like crazy everytime you don't smile
and when you do it makes everything worthwhile
but lately i haven't been able to make you smile like i used to
either i'm rusty or i just hurt you

it hurts like crazy everytime i think about you
the way you laugh at my jokes
the way you actually want to be around me
that doesn't happen often
because everyone knows i'm nothing special

it hurts like crazy knowing i don't ever have a chance
even you happy doesn't make things better
i just usually want to die so i can't feel this pain
because lately that's the only thing i've been feeling

it just plain fucking hurts like crazy
doing nothing
because every time i'm doing nothing
i start thinking of you

Everything About Me

My ears are ringing,
The angels are singing,
To take me home,
I don't want to be alone.

My fingers are aching,
How long is this taking?
I fly away,
Leave behind today.

My heart is racing,
I hate what I'm facing,
Too hard for me to beat,
I lay down in defeat.

My eyes are crying,
Inside we are dying,
No longer able to keep on going,
You were better off not knowing.

My head is pounding,
The echoes are resounding,
The darkness closes in,
This is what I am within.

My soul is shouting,
I shouldn't be so doubting,
Of what you can do,
Of what I should.

My life is disappearing,
This thought is so endearing,
To what you mean to me,
I no longer see.

Heaven

Bodies entwined,
Rising heat deep inside,
Clawing it's way out,
Shove away all the doubt.

Lips connected,
Better than I expected,
Dizzying thoughts,
Is there a reason this should be fought?

Fingernails scratching,
Feels so detaching,
Nothing matters anymore,
Why didn't we do this before?

Heat becomes sweat,
You haven't felt ecstasy just yet,
Let yourself go,
You'll know.

Reality: Version 2.0

Reality merges into pretending,
This wasn't what I was intending,
I've become what I have faked
and I don't even care that my life's now at stake.

My heart is burning
My soul is yearning,
Yet my fantasy will never come true,
and I will never get to be with you.

Who was I fooling?
You know you're the one who's ruling;
My life and everyone, everything in it;
Who was I kidding?

My mind is reeling,
I long for unfeeling
This is a strange thought that in me instills
A new fear that has a right to thrill;
because reality merges in with the dreams
With chasing monsters and piercing screams.

Reality is a faraway thing now,
There is no longer harm nor foul
So don't you worry yourself.

I'm not okay, I promise.

A/N: Just a bunch of poems. Some have titles, others do not. I generally just write poems just because. Usually to vent. Hope you guys could enjoy them or whatever.