Friendship Before Love,

By The Green One.

You’ve stayed by my side,

Perhaps not for me,

You’ve been near me so long

I forgot you were there,

You’ve been like a brother,

Someone I couldn’t trust,

Someone I didn’t choose to love,

But liked to have here.

All on one night

My feelings could change,

And in one night

My feelings did change,

I breathed in your breath,

We kissed on our lips,

I forgot you were there,

Forgot who you were.

One question remains,

That I’ve yet to complete,

Did I love you in that moment,

Or love the moment itself...?

It took several days

For me to be able to ask,

I asked you ‘what happened?’

You said, ‘let’s be friends,’

I don’t blame your mistake,

For my words were unclear,

But by ‘what happened’ I meant

‘I love you, my dear...’

But do I even know you,

What goes on in your head?

Have I ever met you,

And not just seen your mask?

You’re fun, you’re perky,

You’re always being playful,

All the behaviors I thought were ideal,

So what could be your flaws?

You’ve never been serious

A day in your life.

You could be younger than I remember,

But I made up some parts,

Parts I thought were true,

But those were just me,

Projected on you,

They never came from you,

They were my fantasies.

The night was so perfect,

So warm and so great,

I lay in your arms,

And it felt oh, so right,

You kissed me,

I kissed you,

We just couldn’t stop,

It felt like my body was yours,

And if we weren’t touching,

We were too far away.

But the past few days

Proved otherwise,

And when I sit next to you,

I feel far too close,

I’m choked in the same room,

I just want to escape,

But at the same time,

I want to be held,

To feel your warm skin,

to breathe in your breath,

to be in your arms,

to feel your heart beat.

Yet I know the folly,

Of these very thoughts,

So I cast them aside,

And try to fall out of love.

To be unrequited

Is too painful to bear,

So I will stand beside you,

And forget my own heart...