You broke my heart

And I should blame you

For every deadbeat

I’ve allowed to break me

And loosen my strings

As I unravel

In this downward spiral.

I did blame you

For a long while

And I cried for myself

And then when you changed

I had to question

Everything we shared.

How does that make you feel?

You don’t feel for me

Except as a sinner.

You see me as shameful,

Wrong and defiled.

Maybe I am,

But not by your God.

I’m stronger now

Than I ever was

The more I’ve seen,

The more I’ve learned

And I wouldn’t change

It for anything.

I used to fear change

When I was with you

Stable seemed better.

But now I know

That you were just a dip in the road

That held me up for awhile

But once I got out

I knew I’d never go back.