Addiction

Do you realize

What you're asking

Me to do?

The risk involved?

Do you really expect

Me to give up

One of the only people

I can trust completely?

Are you out of your mind?

You must be.

You willingly

Spend time with me

But you're like an

Addiction

Your writing, your words

Your mannerisms, your acting

And part of me knows

That knowing you

Is dangerous

And part of me doesn't care

But part of me wants

To know you

Better than anyone else

But I know it won't happen

You're too reserved

Too withdrawn

Too mistrusting

Though you say you trust me

I love him more than I can say

And I look to you for advice

On anything that comes to mind

And I know you wish you were he

I see sorrow, fear and pure rage

Fighting in your eyes

Am I the only one

Who can read your emotions?

I wait with baited breath

Waiting for you to write

Knowing the likelihood is slim

But still hoping

I know you're angry with me

And wish it wasn't so

I don't share the feeling

I'm just sad

Please forgive me

For whatever it is

I did to make you mad

It was not intentional

Can't we be friends?

Or do stronger emotions

Get in the way?

Please don't turn away from me

We share so many jokes

Like Man Fish, or Chinese

Or pissed Scottish deckhands

In an ugly ass coat

Don't take that away

Let me laugh when I hear toodles

And answer to names not at all

My own

Je suis si désolé

Le plus cher ami

Ne pas tenir mes sentiments contre moi

Je le fais assez pour tous les nous