I closed my eyes at twelve that night

for the first time since I switched the light

and the breezy room was bare,

the darkness thickening the air-

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You called for me within the dim

and your eyelids slowly, slowly open;

my goddamn fate is gathered there

though I never thought that I could answer-

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I never thought that I could answer

because it’s just so hard to say.

Close my eyes, and we all spin faster,

melted wax on an old ashtray-