I hate the sunlight that creeps

Through my windows

My eyes don’t want to

Adjust to the light

I wish my body could sleep on forever

In a dark, perpetual night/

I hear this winter’s gonna be

The coldest

I’m lookin’ forward to the day

It arrives

And when it comes, I’m gonna hole myself up

In a corner in my mind/

Chorus:

And I’m killing myself slowly

(So slowly)

I’m diggin this hole deeper

(And deeper)

And I’m getting more lonely

(more lonely)

I feel my strength getting weaker

(And weaker)/

Sometimes I wish I could leave

In a whisper

Hop on a breeze that would

Sail on forever

Or just give out like a bulb to be changed

And make this sorrow go away/

When you’re not here,

I feel useless and fragile

Or in a cage, like a

Frightened small animal

You help me breathe like a ventilator

Forcing air into my lungs/

Chorus

Can you teach me to love

Myself?

I wished you’d give up

Like everyone else

Leave me here in the cold and the dark

Pull the plug,

And turn the light off/

What is here that

Compels you to stay?

Nothing here,

But you won’t go away

Why can’t you hate me as much

As I so loathe myself?/

Chorus 2x’s

Bridge:

And I fall to my knees

As I curse this disease

And it spreads like a fire

Through dead winter trees

I am going insane

So consumed by the flames

And I damage myself

To diminish the pain

When I can’t help myself

I become someone else

You love me for me

But I don’t know who I am

Anymore,

Anymore/

Baby, why can I never find peace?

Leave me be, and just

Let me sleep…