another let down that I had totally anticipated

stupid heart will lie to me about innocence lost

you know your the guilty one you sick fuck

i feel like this emotion will disappear once i close my eyes tight

sadly, i wish it would

i've locked myself in this cage of memories now

so trapped in the past that the key is nothing but a dim recollection of times ended

vomit up those tears you love whore

i'm sorry for the dreams i've now silenced with my repitition

i feel like a shard of broken tainted glass

cutting everyone who touches me or gets too close to my justifications

and the only one who ever truly held me realized;

"a shard of glass has two smooth sides...

if I learn to pick you up correctly surely my fingers will not bleed"

but alas, a conquest only screams negation and i cut him deep

losing myself in the process

i will never trust again