The Candy

It would be so easy

So simple and so welcome

To swallow the candy of the end

It's time for me to understand

That maybe this is it for me

Yet that thought's not scary

I do not understand

Why people fear the end

For me it'll be such a blessing

Finally, I'll close my eyes

And I won't dread the morn

The candy's in front of me

The candy that will release me

Give me freedom from this hell

And so not with excitement

But rather with a happy calm

Do I begin to swallow the candy

Slowly, piece by piece

Smiling as I realize the pain's gone

Soon I'll never hurt again

I'll never have to pretend again

One piece, two piece, three

Thoughts of false friends

And expectations I'll never fill

Consume my mind, my thoughts

I take a drink of water

Then it's pieces four and five

But then I think of him... and Him

For so long now, they've given me hope

I close my eyes and pray to Him

That He'll help me stop

And give me strength to go on

Moments pass and my phone rings

I plaster a smile on

Fake as it may be

And say hello to him

Suddenly my need to give up is gone

The candy doesn't look so sweet

Slowly, a smile sneaks onto my face

And I realize what I'd leave behind

Someone who cares, my dreams, my hope

He tells me goodnight and I hang up

But the candy is now gone

And replaced with suicidal pills

I look to the sky

And whisper “thank you”

Thanks to Him for him

For saving my life

And stopping me from eating the candy