Keep Holding On

I can almost see the happiness slipping

Past my fingertips as I

Grasp the lifeline before me.

Memories or joy flow past me,

Into the light of the heavens,

Racing out of sight.

I am hardly aware of the fact that

My sweaty palms are slipping,

Clammy against the thread.

I can see looks of cheer

On my family in the distance,

Grins melting into the light as

The picture fades from view.

"No! Come Back! Please, don't leave me!!"

I scream, yet no sound erupts from my mouth,

Not a sound chokes from my chapped lips.

I can hear a chuckle of triumph behind me,

Silkily rolling in the atmosphere.

A warm feeling tingles through my spine,

Sending shivers up my back.

I almost let go, yet luckily remember my grip.

The picture appears once more,

My family lay in the light,

outlined by an ebony frame.

They smile at me for a split second,

Then burst into argument.

The stench of violece and hatred fill the air.

I can't take it anymore.

I can't stand seeing them like this.

One by one they turn to me.

"Why didn't you just do what you were told, Jackie?

was it really that hard?"

"Why couldn't you warm me, Jackie? Do you even

have a heart?"

"Jackie, you don't even care about me do you?"

"Why didn't you save us Jackie?

It's all your fault."

I mercilessly shake my head,

Letting my hair whip around me.

No! No!

I did, I tried, I do, don't I? Please!
You don't understand!

They all turn from me, betrayed looks upon their faces,

The black outline around them glowing like a dark aura.

I can't take it.

They won't even side glance at me.

Sighing I let my fingers slip from the

Rope, I halt holding on.

And let myself fall into the endless darkness,

Welcoming the cold, empty feeling that takes over my body.

I don't even look back as my last breath puffs out.

I have no reason to look back, like I

Had no reason to keep holding on.