Missing

I'm not worth it anymore for you, am I?

You swooned me with your kind words of love

You opened doors and forgot to close them

The little girl in me yearned, starved for your love

When she heard those three words, she was ready to do ANYTHING for you

But now the woman that was hidden even deeper in my skin

Is picking up the mess the little girl brought onto them, onto me

I -we- will never make that mistake again

The girl is dead; the woman is in charge now

It's time to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart

It's time to repair the rips, the tears on my poor soul

It's time to move on, to give my spirit a new beginning

It's time to smile again, to put away desires unfullfilled

Will you miss me when I'm gone?

Will you cry when I suffer, when I'm in pain?

Will you smile when I can finally be TRUELY happy again?

When you love HER, will you think of my kisses in the middle of the night?

Will you ever forget me, ever move on with your life?

Don't worry; I will try to go on, to look back with fondness

But for now, your pictures burn in the fire

My words toward you are venom

My heart fights to wipe you away

My tears flow, my cries and sobs echo in the walls

One more thing before I go:

When my wounded heart beats its wings

And flys away into the clouds forever

Will you know I'm Missing?

NOTE: Dedicated to my ex-boyfriend...I still love you, David. And that hurts more than hating you.

BFQ