Is this Goodbye?

Is this what it’s like

To finally be told goodbye?

I’ve finally given up

Au revoir, don’t come back

There is no way to reason

No way to plead

Everything said makes perfect sense

But I close my ears, and try to forget

Yesterday, everything was fine

But today I know, you’re not returning

Though I did nothing

Nothing was my sin

I was never with you

So how is this so different?

How can you forgive

What I never meant to do

And if only you had been faster

To claim what you considered yours

How would we have this problem?

Except it would be real

So I guess this is goodbye

For now or forever

It is your choice, all I can do is hope

And know, that somehow, somewhere you know

You know that I love you

Though from afar

I feel silver tears course down my cheeks

And feel numbness set in and know

That many miles away

Your heart throbs too

But I fight the darkness and the cold

Abiding by a promise I made many months ago

Though silver and ivory

Leer through the bars

Taunting, haunting

Just out of reach

Just as you have placed yourself

Just a click away… never to respond

I feel everything slip between my fingers

Sand in a sieve, what meaning does my life hold?

Know I love you; know you mean everything to me

I would give anything for you

And you give me away

Why can I not be as selfless as you?