“God has someone for everyone,” you sigh,
and I feel my understanding dawning.
“I really wanted to like you, really tried,
but in the end this doesn’t really feel right.” Okay.
Why didn’t you say something before?
Why did you contradict me when I noticed last month?
But really, I’m somewhat relieved for – you know,
this feeling of love I would wait for forever?

Every human on earth knowing this sadness.
And why? Why are we here, why do we dream and pray?
Just because a natural disappointment fills my breast -
I’m getting over you, and it isn’t taking me very long -
Doesn’t mean you’re catapulting me into depression,
Loneliness, desperation, or uncontrollable horniness -
Apparently your innermost, unadulterated feelings
Weren’t very different from those you share with the world.

Can we move beyond this indiscriminate religionism
and realize love for something that transcends barriers?
Something that we as humans are ingrained with, and
Something futile (dangerous?) to repress or redirect?
“Love” was a metaphor, in case you were wondering,
For this feeling of attraction I might follow to your dorm.
“When we’re going out I feel obligated to see you, and
I don’t like feeling obligated.” I’ll find someone more obligating.

And we’ll try to still be friends, and hopefully it’ll even work,
but if you turned around tomorrow (which actually could happen)
and ask me to take you back, I wouldn’t be so obligated.
But seriously, you’re being immature, and forgive me for saying:
This lesson you had to learn – why couldn’t it be with someone else?
Having realized how desirable I am, I’m realizing how desirable you’re not.
I’m tired of chasing heaven, so this time
This feeling of love can chase me like serendipity.

These warring lovers, reason and emotion,
when properly contained, form the foundation
of a well-balanced, intelligent, beautiful life.
There was nothing wrong with me, except that
I thought there was something wrong with me
When we didn’t work out like I thought we would.
Confidence and hard work, coupled with levelheadedness,
Can plant the seed in time for this – let’s just say ephemeral feeling of love.