I honestly wonder if I could
fuck up
any more than I already have.

I honestly wonder if I could
hurt her
just a little more, even if I tried.

I honestly wonder if I could
ruin this
any better than I already have.

I honestly wonder if I could
tell her
how I really feel.

I honestly wonder if I could
just stop
before I go too far.

I honestly wonder if I could
start crying
a little harder.

I honestly wonder if I could
ruin everything
more perfectly than I already have.

a/n: I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I HATE MYSELF.
I HATE MYSELF.
I HATE MYSELF.
Somebody just fucking shoot me.
Because she hates me.