2/14/08

Dear Diary,

I know I haven't been keeping up with this as much as I should, but hey, I have a life. You know, two months ago if I would have said that, I probably would have severely hurt myself. But I have friends now. Friends do things with each other. I've learned that things are fun.

Through Adriana, I met a whole throng of people. I met a chick named Persia, who is awesome. I thought she was a bit… strange, to say the least. She's horridly quiet, and anti social. She enjoys injuring herself. I'm not saying she cuts herself, but she does stupid crap, like set her hand on top of fires and leave them there for extended periods of time. To say the least, she scared the crap out of me. Somehow though, she convinced me to put my hand over the fire as well. I'd never been so scared shitless in my life. Um, I value my hands.

'Kay thanks.

So after much resistance, she managed to get my hand over the fire. To my surprise, I didn't feel a thing. When I pulled my hand away from the fire, it was a bit darker than it usually was, but I don't care. I just put my hand over fire, and it rocked ass!

Ugh, I just paid attention to the date, and it's Valentines' Day. Oh joy, a day where people buy stupid pink bears and chocolate for others.

I can go to Victoria's Secret for a Pink bear, and I can go to Target for pounds of chocolate. Fuck Valentine's Day.

Speaking of Valentine's Day, my mom gave me something. A…condom? I wasn't sure why, but I was pretty sure she was drunk. No wait, I knew she was drunk. Drunk or not, I wanted to know why in the world she would give her fourteen year old daughter a condom for Valentine's Day. It's not like I'm about to go out and get laid, or something. Well, I didn't have to wonder anymore when she told me, "Just in case," and winked at me. Sickening, much?

I think so.

So I was talking to Adriana today, and we were talking about going to Los Angeles for a few weeks, just to get away. Adriana, myself, Persia, and two other people that I've met through her, Noemi and Jason. As much as I hate California, I'd always thought that LA would be cool. I guess I'll find out.

I, Tatum Marie Stewart, have made my first 'A' ever in my academic career. So where the hell is my gold star? Knowing my mom, it's probably at the liquor store. I studied my ass off for that damn Biology test, and I got a fucking 'A' on it. To say the least, I was shocked. Well, more happy than shocked. I come home to show it to my oh so loving mother, and what do I hear?

"My God. An 'A'. So what, you think you're a genius, now?"

I think that's her way of saying she's proud of me. Happy Valentine's Day, Tatum.

I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I think this'll be one of my better appointments, and there was a time that I thought that I'd never say that. But at the thought of that…

I'd better pack my bag. I'm going to Los Angeles. And nothing's stopping me.

"Take Me Away" by Fefe Dobson.

I was waiting all my life to know you
All about you
And now I'm staring in your eyes ocean blue,
I'm all about you
And in our minds it comes so easily
But there's a feeling coming over me
I wanna show you but there's no way we can really be free
Everybody's watching
Wouldn't it be good if we could be together

Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer into the sun
We will Run

I try to remember when I was just a child
In my roo-oom
And my imagination used to run wild
But I never kne-ew
That nothing's ever as it seems to be
When a dream collides with the reality
It should be easy when two people love eachother truly
Everybody's talking
Wouldn't it be good if they would understand us

Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer into the sun
We will Run

We will run
Whoa, oh
We will run
Oh, yeah...

Wouldn't it be good if they would understand us
Wouldn't it be good if we could be together
Take me away

Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer to the sun
We will Run

I will run
I will run with you wherever you go
Don't be afraid
Lets run away and I will steer into the sun
We will run

-Tatum Marie

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