i have died a thousand deaths

though alive i have no breath

seeing him not smile my way

loving him but he can’t stay

why is it when i try

slow tears form in my eyes

i want to forget him so

teh thing is he doesn’t know

thta i’m trying to pretend

that for me he’s just a friend

does me no good if I smile

hiding inside is my style

i love him but he doesn’t know

it’s that difficult to show

bitter smile when i am hurting

cup of gall i’m always drinking

how i wish that i could tell

words that i’m fond of as well

some say it will be too late

if i would still have him wait

i’m afraid i’m loving a wall

he won’t hear me when i call

though alive i’m feeling dead

i have died a thousand deaths