Sins of Time

Humans don’t live long

They come and go

Their bodies change

But time always has one rule:

They always grow older.

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Take care of her, they said

Don’t break her heart, others whispered

They say now:

She was a good girl,

A sweet, quiet one.

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Standing at the front of the church,

Judged among so many wet eyes

Her family and her friends

I can bear to even glance their way as I say my part.

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She was my light in all my darkness

My angel in my demon’s heart

My rose among so many black lilies

My life in my time of death.

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She’s so cold, so pale like I am

But I couldn’t bear to end

Such a heartbeat, such a song

Couldn’t mar the silken skin

Couldn’t watch her hate the sun

While she begged for release from the flames of hell.

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They bring her to the pyre

To do away with her body, to set it ablaze

In a moment of deafening orange flame—she is gone

I recede into the night, deeply masked in shame

Am I to blame for the sins of time?

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That mirror of grief still hangs upon the wall

I turn, I see my reflection and I loathe it

It’s of a man—too colorless, too beautiful to be alive

Tell me this isn’t real.

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It cracks and breaks into a million shards

I fall to my knees amongst the glass

I bleed confessions, feelings, and fears

But my words fall on deaf ears.

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I once knew a woman

Smart, calm and loving she was

She would fight for any cause

Tears fall, hearts my now be broken

But I know love was the greatest thing we could make

With every heavy sigh I remember

Time passed us by unawares of its price

In every lonely night we ran and laughed

She was a comforting sight—she was life!

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But still death’s black hand lay upon her shoulder

Snatched her from me at the worst instant

When she was at her weakest, frail and sick

Eyes sunken and skin glistening with sweat

Her breath rattling, tears falling into her hair—

Such an ugly way to die.

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I should have kissed more passionately,

Should have whispered sweet nothings in her ear

Should have acted more alive

Not so distant, so protective

Should have bitten—

Immortality would have been ours.

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The human vows are lies

Their bondage is forever

Blissful times, hard times

But it always ends in tears.

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For vampires and humans

It’s never been spoken—

We are just creatures they have made

Thoughts and myths, never existent.

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Then why do I feel so much pain?

Death has parted me; it has parted her

They say until death do you part

But they forget it would have been death

That would’ve brought us together…

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Hunting

Loving

Crying

Laughing

Living

Dying…

A never-ending cycle untouched

By the scars and sins of time

An immortal forever.