Indescribable, Unforgettable, Unforgivable

A poem about my torture at not telling the guy I liked how I felt about him before he left school.

Eating me up from the inside

A pain that is not death yet can’t be life

Slipping between both worlds, drugged by the feeling

The feeling that I think is love

Never felt this way before, about anyone before

It’s the way you do this to me

How do your hazel eyes pierce deep into me?

Your wispy blonde-brown hairs tickle your forehead

Your uneven grin, confident, cocky, adorable

The nose twice broken, crooked out of shape

Unique and desirable

Soft, delicate eyelashes

Broad, wide shoulders

Pink lips

Strong arms

I think about you close to me, your breath mingling with mine

Your strength being transferred to me, supporting me

I dream about you and me, and open my eyes to see you again br br

But I can’t see you anymore

You’re only alive in my mind, my memory of how you were

Can’t you see it’s eating me up inside?

That I wasn’t game enough to make the first move

And now it’s too late

You’re gone

And so too is my heart.