Chapter 6

I kissed him. I felt his soft, warm lips pressed against mine and my chest ached with a longing so strong I had nearly forgot that sort of pain had ever existed.

I woke up in a cold sweat and found myself breathing heavily. There was a pang in my heart where the pain of longing still resided. Tyson. I still loved him. I couldn't forget about him no matter how hard I tried. What was wrong with me? We were over and done with and here I was still pining for him, dreaming of him, awaking in the middle of the night because I felt like I still loved him.

A tear slipped down my cheek. I didn't want to feel this way. I just wanted the memories to go away so I could move on, and perhaps even find someone new. But it was so hard. This sadness just wouldn't go away.

I turned to my other side where Cedric was and closed my eyes, trying to get my mind off of Tyson. It was difficult, but soon I had drifted back to sleep.

His embrace was so welcoming and his kiss was soft on my head. I smiled and cuddled in closer to him as his arms held me close. I caught a whiff of his cologne, but it didn't smell familiar. Of course not. I hadn't seen him in so long. He must have changed it while I was gone. I didn't mind though. The only thing I cared about was the fact that I was here with him, in his arms.

My eyes fluttered open and met with skin. Tyson?

I gasped and recoiled back as far as I could when I realized who's chest I was near. I immediately felt his arms hit my back and realized he was the reason why I'd had the dream of Tyson embracing me. His arms weren't crushing me, but they were blocking my will to move freely away from him. I looked up at his face and found him still asleep. I pulled away, but my efforts were in vain. He was strong, even in his sleep.

“Cedric,” I whispered as I continued to try breaking myself free. The volume of my voice rose as I grew impatient. “Come on Cedric. Let go!”

His eyes lazily opened and next a yawn before he realized where his hands were.

“Hehe,” He smiled shyly as his hands pulled away. “Sorry, guess I was having a good dream.”

“Pervert.” I breathed under my breath as I hopped off the bed, making my way to the bathroom.

I combed my hair back in a pony tail and brushed my teeth. Today wasn't any special day, nor did I have anything to do, so I got into some comfy clothes and settled in front of the T.V. with a bowl of cereal.

“Is that all your gonna do all day or do you have plans?” The voice came from behind me. I craned my neck around to find Cedric dressed his usual rock and roll type outfit. A nice, dark shirt, light blue jeans, a black belt, sneakers and a few accessories, including sunglasses.

“Might as well.” I said as I turned my gaze back to the T.V. “Nothing better to do on a Saturday.”

“Aw, come on. I'm sure you got a date or something later.” He was standing beside the couch now. I looked up to find him grinning at me. “Right?”

I swallowed the cereal I was chewing and smiled back. “No, not really.” I half laughed at the thought of this. I hadn't been on a date since...well...since me and Tyson were together.

The feel of his weight resting beside me knocked me out of my thoughts of Tyson and into the realization that he was sitting on the couch next to me.

“I'm sure any guy would love to take you out on a date.” His body was so close I could feel the warmth coming off it. I could feel my skin reacting to the closeness as goosebumps began to form on my arm. I looked up at his eyes, and it was hard not to get lost in them.

I was suddenly knocked out of this trance when his cell phone rung and I nearly fell off the couch.

“Uh-huh...yeah, I'm on my way.” He closed the phone then stood up and smiled at me. I could feel my face growing hot. “Guess I'm heading out. See ya later.”

I breathed out a sigh as he walked out the door. It had been so long since I'd felt my heart pound that fast. I couldn't tell why though. Was it me being scared or was I starting to feel something for this guy? Whatever it was I couldn't seem to tell. Somehow, Tyson still had a grip on me and it was starting to affect my judgment on my feelings.

I set my bowl down on the coffee table and stretched my body out the length of the couch. I breathed out a heavy sigh in frustration. When would this ever stop? When would I finally be over Tyson? I knew these things took time, but I was done with liking him. Done with loving him. I just wanted to get over the bad feelings and start a new life with a new person.

I went to my room and checked my cell phone. No new messages. I looked on my profile page to see who was online.

Even though I didn't think it directly in my mind, when I did these things, I had one person in mind who I wanted to be texted by or see online, and this was probably the reason why I wasn't getting over him. But did getting over him mean I had to sever communication with him completely? No, I couldn't do that. We had agreed to be friends after the break up.

But would that really work? Could we really be just friends after the relationship we'd be through?

I stuck my head in the fridge, hopeful I'd find a tasty snack to satisfy me till dinner. My ears picked up the sound of the door opening, followed by footsteps and Cedric's greeting.

“You still doing nothing?” He said with a chuckle as he tapped his fingers on the counter top. “What'd ya say I treat you to a night out. We'll call it...a date.”

Author: I'm back from my looooooooooooooooooooong ass absence of this story. So so sorry. Had a lot to deal with, not to mention I was on vacation. But I am back...I hope. I know I always say that. And now I have to actually write a decent chapter cus this one is crap. Next one I'll try to make it longer.

Oh, and please review. It's been so long since I've read any reviews and I'd like to see how I'm doing. Thanks a ton! :D