What Do You Have To Lose?

by, Cassandra

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All I wanted was to find what I had lost. What I got was more then I ever expected. It was overwhelming to say the least, and sometimes I do regret it. Because I know that it isn't going to last. It never does, and I cannot change that, even if I wanted to. Life needs to take its own course. You can't force something that isn't meant to be. That's how you get hurt… trust me, I found that out the hard way.

We always talk about the "what ifs". What if we'd turned left instead of right? What if, instead of trying to please everyone else, we'd done what was best for us? But we never try to find out. Everyone says that there's no going back, but they're wrong. You can, and you should, go back. Even if it's just for the hell of it. Because you never really know what you're going to find, and it could just be what you needed to change your life.

Force life's hand into give you what you so desperately want, but run the risk of losing everything you already have. It's a gamble you're going to have to take, because if you don't, you will never know what could have been. And, believe me, you will regret it. Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, that's exactly when it will get worse. You need to bet it all, and wait out the storm. Only the strong, the brave, or the insanely stupid win this game.

If you just sit and complain about the hand life has dealt you, then you've only got yourself to blame. Be content with what you already have, but keep reaching for the stars, because the second you give up is the moment you lose it all. You have to keep trying, praying and dreaming, even if you end up bleeding, because nothing comes easy. You have to get your hands dirty, get your heart broken, and put your life and sanity on the line. Because if you don't it's your own fault. You can't blame anybody else.

Try to keep everything inside and you'll only find that it'll just become harder to bear. Everyone needs an outlet. So scream if you need to, cry if you want to, because life is too short to spend regretting what you've become. Be happy with who you are, and what you've got. Smile even when you have tears in your eyes. Maybe you'll touch someone's life, and be remembered for something good. Don't worry about what tomorrow will bring. Just keep getting through today.

I can't promise that everything will be alright. I can't promise that you're not going to cry, or hurt, or break. But I can promise that life is a little easier when you have someone to lean on. You have to trust someone at sometime; otherwise this life is all in vain. I know it's hard to open up to someone, to trust them with who you really are, but it's just one of those risks you have to take. Because you'll never win if you never take a risk.

All I wanted was to find what I had lost. What I got was more then I ever expected. It was overwhelming to say the least, and sometimes I do regret it. Because I know that it isn't going to last. It never does, and I cannot change that, even if I wanted to. Because life is what it is. You have to take it as it comes, and roll with the punches. Paste on a smile no matter how you feel, and convince the world that it is real.

What do you have to lose?