It seems sometimes like we’re breaking down,

and I cry because sometimes I want out.

Even though I care so much,

I can’t do much but shout,

and you don’t see what you put me through.

You don’t see how much I hurt inside.

I know we dread to speak of this

but its been too long for us to hide.

Tears become my comfort,

when your arms have failed to reach,

and words I wish to open to you

whirl around as if I’m preparing a speech.

I love you too much to do what’s best.

I love you too much to leave,

but as I watch you falling out of love with me,

I know what it is we both need.

I say that and then I shudder inside,

because I want you here in my arms.

I’m tired of trying to do what’s right,

and still ending up causing harm.

It’s not for us to understand.

We can try if we really want,

but everything that’s keeping me here,

is what if I left would haunt.

I feel I can’t do this much longer.

I don’t want to feel this pain.

Sometimes as I speak to you in riddles,

I feel as if I’m going insane.

I know we have so much to say

but can’t speak what’s on our minds.

For some reason its coming out now

and its not exactly kind,

but my aim is never to hurt you.

My aim is to love you the way you love me.

I want to love you, I need to love you,

but sometimes its like it just can’t be.

You’re my child, my father, my mother, and friend,

everything I could ever need,

but characteristics and voices of disinterest

prevent me from savoring this feed.

I’m stuck in my own wheel of misery,

and tears come so easily in the day.

I don’t understand what’s happening.

I don’t even know what else to say,

except I love you too much to do what I want.

I love you too much to leave,

but as I watch you falling out of love with me

I know what it is we both need.