Medicated

I do need a pill
to keep myself
sedated
from going crazy

I have no feelings
not anymore
these pills
miracle pills
make them go away
for a bit at least

oh who am I kidding?
I have feelings alright
so many
they overflow
I want them to go away
I want more pills
until I can't think for myself
anymore

I want to be medicated
it's easier than loving you
so much easier