For Sam

So I haven’t written in a while…
… The stars are out tonight
- clear sky -
- like the night you held me,
the night you kissed me,
such dizzy sweet delusion!
I floated in rock polls,
calm and shallow,
safe and empty…
…But then you took my hand,
lifted me up;
My skin washed over me,
the bubbles dissolved where my feet used to be.

On a seashore,
some sun god burns a hole in my head, and
the line on the horizon is drawn in golden blood.
It is ours.
It is our promise for the future -
- forever and a day beyond
what is expected, what is possible
(in these easily fractured lives.)

When you are my stars
and
I am your sunset,
we create two halves of a
universal
and
beautiful
whole.
Together we create the world.
Together we hold the heavens in place
and the clouds in a pastel painting.

There is no order or rhythm or rhyme
to what I say or think,
of course there are no certainties,
but I need nothing more than the blood that pumps through my veins to tell me this is real, and a squeeze of your hand in mine to make me feel safer with you than anyone I’ve ever met.

When you’re gone, I dream about everything you are
When you’re with me, there’s no where else I’d
rather be;
and in all the times in between,
my heart belongs to you.
Always.
Completely.
Blissfully.

I love you.
There is nothing else.