I dream and I dream and I dream. Right now I ride in the car, and I
dream of someone behind me, before me, to either side, a soft hiss of
laughter in my ear because he is not really there, but intangible.
He holds me and caresses me with mind alone, but it is enough that I
feel what is not seen. It is not, does not need to be, foreplay: it
is only the comfort and touch that I am forever craving and never
receiving: a soft brush of fingers across my face, a firm hand
stroking my neck and back, playing with my hair, an arm about my
shoulders pulling me into his side and holding me securely,
protectively, so that I can relax and do not have to sit up on my
own, or two arms tugging me backwards (or forwards) to rest against
his chest or back, and I lean into him. I am safe. He is already
inside my mind, my thoughts, but then he always is, so that he knows
me as well as I do him. He is not particularly hungry at the time,
but he nibbles about my neck, and the soft pinpricks of pain feel
good, too, and his claws when he traces them up my arms... And I
rest, because there is not a need to do anything else right now, he
is content as I am, and perhaps I sleep, but if I do he is still
there, still holding me, and I do not feel alone.