
| No Existence
Author: Definition You told me I was a nobody. I agreed with you.
Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Angst - Words: 386 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 01-05-08 - Status: Complete - id: 2459251
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set me free...
Shoot.
Once upon a time
(you told me that)
I. Didn't. Exist.
Perhaps, during that
time,
you were correct.
But actually,
you were quite wrong
although there was
nothing false in your
words.
(at the time.)
You told me I was in
denial
In refusal
(just trapped in my
polluted waters of ignorance)
You noticed that I was
in depression
but you just stood by
watching with amused
eyes
sparing no comfort of
any kind
You knew I was suicidal
but you walked away,
shaking
your too-big of a head
quietly.
You complained about my
anger-management
problems
but you were the one
who started
every fight in the
first place
You were annoyed by my
constant impatience
but you always made me
even more impatient
every time you tried to
'help'
You said I was bitter
but you don't
understand
anything
You know nothing about
me or my past
(not that you'd care,
anyways)
You watched me become
intoxicated
every other night,
but you were the one
who
offered me the first
drink
at every bar
You were irked by my
careless mistakes
and stupidity
but you were the one
who
always said one plus
one is three
You went against me
because
I was hateful,
but you were the one
who always promoted
discrimination.
You were sick of my hunger, my thirst, my greed
You said I don't
belong
that I'd never fit in
that I was a nobody
that
I didn't exist.
Maybe you were right –
I was in denial,
refusal, depression
Yes, I had
Anger management
problems
and
constant impatience
I was bitter
intoxicatedstupidcareless
suicidal
Hateful.
I too am sick of the
hunger, thirst, and greed
I don't want
attention
I don't want any of
thismisunderstanding,
(and you said i didn't
exist)
I now realize that you
tried to take the best of me
justgoaway
Cause I do exist
I do belong
I do fit in
I am somebody
I exist,
even if it's just
barely
you're wrong, and
always were,
cause i do.exist.
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