Maybe, Just Maybe

I wish I could tell you just how sorry I am,

Though I'm pretty sure right now you don't give a damn,

But I'd like you to know that it wasn't all you,

Though saying it was all me isn't quite true.

Lately everything's been building up,

And I would love for it all to stop.

But when I'm up all night worrying,

The last thing I need is to fret about the next morning,

And you lecturing me about a lack of sleep,

Because really darling, that's not very sweet.

And with all your controlling ways,

I could rant for days.

And when I see my family for the first time in ages,

I want someone who will understand they take center stage,

Maybe it would have been nice for you to get it,

That when I'm pushing you off me I've just about had it,

So maybe if you hadn't joked around about that,

Maybe I wouldn't have acted like such a brat,

But even when I told, asked, begged you to stop,

You kept going like you had a record to top.

Maybe, just maybe, if when I had a secret I couldn't share,

Instead of attacking me you could actually care.

And I'm sorry I couldn't say this directly to you,

But not a word of this isn't true.

Urgh. Sometimes I hate myself. But sometimes I hate everyone else.

Review me? I'm single now, I'll need it.

Sweets555