I woke up hours later and when I looked at the clock I noticed it was near on ten in the evening. I smiled and got up. I looked at the bed and there was Regan sleeping peacefully. I didn't want to disturb him so I tried creeping out of the room. I didn't get far did I?

'I hope your not going any where but the bathroom' I sighed and asked

'why? Last time I check you got in a pissy mood with me now you want to keep me' he let out a small laugh which was more of an amused sigh.

'yeah so what? I'm allowed to keep what belongs to me' I crossed my arms over my chest

'I don't belong to anyone Roberts and that includes you' he smiled and sat up. Shrugging he got up and walked over my direction. As he past me he put and arm around my waist, across my stomach, and placed a light kiss on my forehead.

'yeah you say that now' then he walked out of the room and I guess down stairs. I wasn't tired nor did I want to do anything with him. For all I know it could end up with us fighting again or kissing each others faces off. I followed him down stairs looking quite scared and nervous and I guess I was but in a strange way. I wasn't nervous about being here or being around him or anything like that I just scared he would bring a few things up and it would be stuff I didn't want to talk about.

I walked into the kitchen and saw that Regan was raiding the fridge for a snack. I sighed shaking my head at him in disgust.

'what?!' he whined

'oh nothing don't worry' I catch his eye sight and I just want to say I'm sorry for everything I've done but it doesn't come out. I guess I'm just being stupid again. Its the way I work but that's it really.

'Regan come with me tomorrow?'i blurted. I clapped my hand over my mouth. Oh shit I didn't want him to come with me. I knew my doctor was going to come up with some bad things and Regan was going to stop me. He smiled at me

'sure I would love to come' great I thought I was so going to be in trouble from now on. I let out a groan but sat on a chair in the middle of the room

'you know I really don't want to go tomorrow I'm afraid that they will tell me my ribs are about to burst my lungs open or I have an infection with in me. I just don't want that to happen to me' he sat opposite me and sighed quietly. I noticed my life was full of sighs.

'look Epi if they tell you that you are worse off then you should be then I know that you will keep going. Nothing will bring you down unless you are a millimetre away from death. I know I'm scared for you and if we end in the finals then its just going to go to pot but don't get in a tizzy ok.' I looked at Regan for a while. I tired to see if there was anything that was normal. The longing. The happiness I even looked for hatred but I didn't find anything just an empty hole.

'arg you guys are all the same' I said pissed off that in a day Regan had changed. He wasn't like this last week instead he was kind and caring. He would of told me to drop out but now he's telling me not to. Trying to tell me I should get my self killed. Maybe he is using reverse psychology I thought. I raged off up stairs and found the spare bedroom as I knew this place has three bedrooms. I knew where it kinda of was because I stayed here when I was young and my family was away on work business.

I tried one door hoping it wasn't Cleo's bedroom and luckily it wasn't so I stalked over and collapsed on the bed. Life was so hard. I didn't know what to do any more. I needed to talk to Ant, Curt and Bentley. I had to say sorry for everything I had done to them. I had to sorry for being such a bitch to them in the past and tell them that now I know that I treated them like I was using them.

I didn't hear Regan move past my door nor did I hear clattering down stairs. I wanted to go and see if he was alright but I didn't because I knew if I did then he would ask why I said what I said and he would ask why I got in a tizzy about what he said.

I don't know maybe my storming off has gotten him thinking. If it has then maybe I'm in for luck but I dought it, he is so dense and oblivious to everything around him. I drifted off to sleep with all my thoughts running through my head and yet I I felt bad for just sleeping in that room by my self.

when I woke up the next morning I didn't realise that I wasn't alone in the room. I guess I was still out of it. When I got out of bed I walked into the bathroom, which was link, then I stripped down and had a shower. The shower woke me up so when I got out and wrapped a towel around me I felt refreshed and ready to fight the day through. I walked in and being a klutz I didn't notice the heap on the floor in front of me. So I walked and you guessed it. I tripped over. I landed in a heap while the body that I tripped over was still asleep or what I believe to be asleep.

I holding my towel in place I crawled over to the body. I pulled his right shoulder back so he was lead on his back. I gasped. It was Regan and he looked dead but he wasn't. I could see his rapid even breathing.

Stupid ass twit. I leant forward and smelt his breath and I was disgusted by it. He had gotten drunk last night. The idiot he knew he was meant to get up early to day. I nearly screamed...wait I am screaming. It was high as well, some thing you didn't want to hear when you wake up with a hang over. I heard a groan and I stopped with the screaming.

I pocked him in the stomach and he caught my hand.

'your fast for some one with a hang over' I smile appeared on his lips. It wasn't really a smile it was more a smirk.

'I don't get hang overs' ah that's why there is a smirk on his face. 'why did you scream?' I shrugged

'seemed the best way to wake you up at the time' he gave a small laugh.

'there are better ways you know' I gave a small laugh of my own and got up

'I wasn't going to kiss you if that's what you mean' he opened it eyes.

'damn' was all he said I couldn't make out why though. It was either a disappointed damn or an expression to say that I looked good.

'get up Roberts and get out.' he got up still clinging to my arm. He smile had gone slightly evil and it kind of reminded me of last night. He walked to in front of me. I nearly fell on the bed but I kept my balance because if I fell then he would of come down on top of me.

'do you know why I don't have hang overs in the morning?' I shook my head.

'no' I squeaked. He opened his mouth and then closed it again.

'You don't want to know' and then he swooped in unexpected. It was only a short kiss I didn't really have time to react but as his lips left mine I followed wanting more.

He left the room leaving me by the bed stunned. It felt weird when he first kissed me I was scared then when he did it again I was willing but now I was stunned. I think they came in the wrong order. I tried to forget it as I rubbed my moisturiser in and got dressed but it didn't work. It seem that he was still drunk I mean he smelt fowl but some how I knew he was fine. There was no sign of drunkenness or vioence just plain ass hole Regan.

I finished getting dressed and brushing through my hair and I made my way down stairs. Regan was already there and cooking.

'wow he cooks after a booze night as well' he ignored me like normal so I sat down. Five minutes later a plate crashed down in front of me.

'pancakes. Eat and enjoy' he sat down opposite me and started eating. I so wanted to dig in and stuff my face but some thing stopped me. I was starving but I couldn't eat it. I pushed the plate away from me.

'I'm not hungry but thank you.' I got up and left. What was wrong with me. I always ate breakfast. I always ate pancakes. It was my favourite food. I didn't even touch it. I felt so bad. I don't know what is wrong with me I mean there has to be other then Regans kiss shocked me earlier and I got pissed off with him and I realised that he wasn't all he was made out to be.

'do you want to leave for your appointment now' I nodded and got my shoes on not looking at Regan or touching him. I avoided any contact as I walked past him and I felt so weird about it. I know I should be able to look at him straight in the eye with out any hesitation and I knew I should be able to brush my arm against his as I walked past him but I couldn't. I touched him I felt like the world would fall in to darkness. What was wrong with me?

I walked out the door and to Regans car. When he unlocked it I got in. I was dreading the ride as I knew for a fact that Regan would ask questions and it just freaked me out. We started driving and Regan didn't say any thing and I was surprised when we got to the hospital as well because Regan hadn't said anything all the way here. I didn't want to say anything because I knew I hadn't really done anything wrong.

I was just about to get out when I noticed that Regan wasn't moving. He wasn't getting out the car at all. I frowned and sat back in my chair.

'what are you doing?' he asked me. I hung my head. I'm not sure why

'I'm waiting for you' I stated quietly. He didn't look at me he just looked ahead of him. He looked half asleep or half dead.

'don't bother' he said flatly. I frowned what the hell was wrong with him to day. I was so annoyed I forgot about all my worries and I climbed on top of him.

'look Regan I don't know what they hell is wrong with you at the moment but you need to fucking snap out of it. You need to stop acting like a child and start acting like a man. If your still worried about what Ant said then shame on you. I think I kind of showed you that you are the only one I love and if you are going to start acting as though I mean nothing to you then fine you can fuck out of my life and leave me be. I fell in love with you because I knew you could handle me. No one else can. You nearly killed me four months but I forgot about that and put it aside so I could fall for you but now I'm getting treated like shit.

This morning I felt like I couldn't go near you and I wasn't up for eating either so I thought it was some thing to so with me but no, now I find its all to do with you and all because you are being a selfish bastard.' he just kept staring.. he is so stupid. I couldn't believe I was going to slap him...wait I just did no turning back now is there. He head whipped to look at me.

'what the hell was that for?'

'you weren't listening to me' his mouth shaped into an 'o' and he hung his head leaning his against my shoulder.

'I'm sorry. I'm so out of it at the moment I don't know what's wrong.'

'well if you were listening to me then you might know what is going on. Well just a little bit any way.' he lifted his head and smiled

'I heard enough to do this' he lifted his hands and cupped around my head. He pulled me in and kissed me. I smiled. Maybe all he needed was a slap start. A kick start would have been more fun.