a/n: Shaking hands
shaky breaths
heart thundering
in my chest…

-

the bracelet hangs
just millimeters
fractions of an inch
from where the salt sticks to my skin

my heart is pulsing
faster.faster.faster
feeling the pain infect me
and the blood rushing through me

deep breath
keep breathing
don't stop breathing yet baby
you're going to live (for now)

swallow hard
take another deep breath
clench my teeth
close my eyes

glance at it and smile
guilt seeps through my veins
knowing I shouldn't be doing this
but I don't even care anymore

.i.want.pain.
.i.want.pain.
.i.want.pain.
.i.want.pain.

a/n: I wish I was slitting my wrist right now,
and not just dragging rubber across it repeatedly.